Oh to be a perfectionist and imperfect. School has snowballed into a pile of hellish, joyless, overwhelming shit and now that I'm on the other side of it everything is alright. The last three weeks I've genuinely felt like I was in hell. Could have been the downward spiral that is the nature of my thinking, could have been the diet that has been 85% coffee lately. Either way I really need to learn how to sit back, breathe and actually see what I'm doing with myself. If I did that sometimes I would probably be much happier more often. Sure I'm out of two classes and I'm failing another two but it's workable. Am I a failure because of it? No. From this side of the fence I'm feeling a tad retarded for not dropping comm and drafting earlier. So yeah, I still can't run away and join the circus but I think coping in is the agenda. Bring on the 12 hour hang.
On another note I'm really starting to hate social networking sites. I want to ditch the facebook account and properly connect with my contacts I've made there. I've come to the conclusion, thanks to Karyl, that facebook, twitter, even myspace make it so that we don't have to do anything worth talking about. Before facebook no one posted on their sites, blogs and the like about anything that wasn't exciting. They would post about a kickass vacation, mind blowing shows or books that really made them think. Now you're seeing posts along the lines of " omg I just picked my nose" or " wow I hate mondays!!" the exclamation points make it ground breaking. I'm guilty of it myself I used to strive to do stuff worth blogging about now I just post about picking my nose and how montonous my life is. I apologize readers. I think to save my intelligence I'm unplugging. Anyone who doesn't want me to fall off the face of civilization will be able to keep tabs of me here or through msn. If you've never grabbed my email get it soon.
